holy hell i havent blogged since july!!!!!!!!!!

dear bloggy blog,
im going to start off by apologizing to you for my neglect. the past 5months have been well crazy.

i just read my last post from july & well things have changed since then. for one the boy and i started talking again soon after that blog was written. and about a month later we officially became a duo. christmas eve will mark 4months together. he's not one for celebrations but since well not going to lie hes my 1st bf ever i take it serious. its important to me to experience all the 1st's. 1st kiss 1st dinner with the parents 1st holiday together 1st fights... 2nd fights.
its been hard but i think im getting the hang of it. i think my only problem is. well i guess ive been such a negative person for so long that my mind and the way i think and spin things in my brain will always turn into something negative.

which leads to this... maybe all the negativity in my brain that i think about. that i think that goes on isnt just my mind playing me. maybe its the truth.

so i wonder am i a big idiot to try to believe evertyhing?


anyway xmas is coming up idk what am getting for xmas... probably nothing.

one of my favorite xmas songs... not so happy & pleasant but its such a classic :D

4 weeks...

its been 4weeks since the crap that was thrown at me and i still feel like it was yesterday.
like i said in my last post i think ive cried more in the past 4weeks than i have ever. and thats because im a big crier.

i just wonder how it feels for him?

wow...

ive been out of basically the whole interenet world for the past few months.
hadnt really touched the computer in a while, maybe just to check emails and thats about it.

these past 3weeks have been hard
i think ive cried more these past 3weeks in general over everything than i have in my entire life.

so today i wake up to what i would say is the worst news i could get ever... my dearly be loved panic at the disco has basically turned into a duo ryan and jon left the band to pursue a new dream. im surprised that im not as shocked as i should be. this band is like my Beatles so them breaking is something i should be more freaked about.
i guess because i know panic will continue with brendon and spencer we'll see what happens.

heres a live video of them performing norhtern downpour



to brendon,ryan, jon and spencer thank you for making the past 4yrs better with your music. i will never forget the memories of jamming out to your music in my car with my roomates with my brother and will always remember the memories of going to 3 of your concerts meeting you twice and the work and dedication it took to get to them.
you 4 have inspired me to be who i am your music lifted my spirtis when i was down and for that i will always be greatful.

thank you.

"believers never die"... GUESS WHAT...

SATURDAY IT TOTALLY DIED.

so what was supposed to be an awesome fall out boy weekend turned into a rained out postponed show.
the weekend started out great with me and my brother getting sweet seats at the houston astros game. they lost but we were row 17 above the visitors dug out it was epic seats like that dont come cheap and a random man was generous enough to give my brother and i the tickets for free. i think he had to leave. he looked like a business man. even got to see my favorite ivan rodriguez play for the astros 1st year signed with them so it was exciting.






so saturday comes along the morning starts off great. we arrive at the venue 8am still 4 people in front no big thing at all. nice girls unlike the "old lady groupies" who werent there yet thank god.
about an hour into waiting it starts getting cloudy, then its starts to drizzle then it turned into pouring POURING RAIN luckily umbrellas were used but and they let us stand under a one of the opening gates but nothing seemed to work for us to stay dry the rain went off and on forever and then the worst thing happens about an hour or 2 before our early entree THE PETE WENTZ decides to post a tweet on his twitter that says "@houston kids. Safety issues due to lightning here. Well keep u informed. Nothing has been cancelled yet.
9:49 AM Apr 18th from TwitterBerry"

shortly after this comes in his twitter "@houston show is officially cancelled by venue due to an electric storm. More info to come.
10:39 AM Apr 18th from TwitterBerry"

now i know there was nothing we could do about the rain shit happens i get it. but the fact that we had to read it on twitter instead of someone coming out and telling all of us that were standing out in the rain. it was upsetting not gonna lie.
so saturday turned into crap i felt so sick by the end of it soaking wet shoes all soggy and gross. ended up just hanging at liz's apartment slept a lot then watched ?"monsters vs aliens" that made me feel better.


so now its sunday and im dead tired work tomorrow. dont want to go but what can i do. oh well.

on a complete side note, summers coming very soon and since i have incredibly long hair and i havent had an actual cut, just trims for about 2years ive very VERY tempted to chop it off. THOUGHTS? im thinking of some sort of a bob choppy and messy cute kind of like cassadee from hey monday.

ignore the blonde streaks what do you think of the hair cut?


OR maybe like audrey's hair w/out the extentions yup she has short hair although this picture is a few years old...



i need help on what to decide with my hair.
give me ideas. :D

goodnight

bday weekend!

so sunday was my birthday, happy birthday to me.
and i decided very last minute to head up to austin on friday for sxsw to catch versaemerge.



my brother and i drove up and met up with liz and rosey. of course my dumbass only had the information from myspace and i didnt know that their set was semi exclusive.
we had to sign up online to be on the guest list. well i did it last minute so i guess it never went through so when i got in i kind of begged the girl to let me and chano(my brother) in. she did and i was beyond excited. got to get up front and take pictures...(note: id post my pics but i left my camera in the hotel, luckily liz grabbed it for me)
their set was small but worth every bit of the driving up there. im glad i went i wouldve regretted it, had i not gone.

after their set we got to meet 3/5th's of the band.
we got to talk to sierra jerry and of course as said in a different blog my favorite blake haha. they were all very sweet. sierra was like a friend jerry was crazy and hyper and blake was very humble. i wasnt planning on going to warped tour BUT seeing as they are on the line-up this year i think i will go.

sierra

jerry


blake :D <3


after that we walked around 6th street.
i can honestly say i didnt see what all the hype was about. maybe its because im not a drinker so being on a street filled with bars wasnt for me. plus it was filled with tons of drunks and bums...no offense to the bums.

came back home on saturday and had a pre-bday dinner with mirta,bonnie,albert and crystal met us up there a little after. house of china may not be the ideal bday dinner but when its close friends and comfort food anything works.
soon after dinner we went with crystal to one of her friends bday party. a little uncomfortable but still fun. her friends are very funny and sweet. a little before midnight aka my bday we left party to have a little car celebration for mine.( i havent had a proper bday with my friends, so anything was better than nothing) the clock struck 12 and they all screamed happy birthday in the car it was loud and albert started tickling me. of course what did we do right after. go drive around to find the scary street we drove through once in high school after alberts bday party years ago. that street was creepy then but this time around it wasnt at all. they finally put up lights on the streets and actually made it a street instead of the dirt road it used to be so it wasnt scary. although we did have a few moments of freaking out...at least i did.

sunday morning, of my bday my family and i went to have breakfast and then we went to the flea market where i found 2 pairs of vintage sunnies and a "belle" doll from the movie "beauty and the beast" so i was happy. of course i had to work that day but overall the weekend was awesome. probably one of my favorite bdays in a long time.

so yesterday and today i had jury duty/selection.
i didnt get picked at all for a trial but still the whole process was horrible i dont ever want to do that again. i think im leaving the country or something just so i wont ever have to do that again.

had it been something cool like serial mom, then i wouldve been all for it. haha



back to work tomorrow. i dont think ive ever been happy to say this but thank god lol
goodnight chickadees


OH PS...
i got my 1st tattoo going on 2 fridays ago. i still cant believe i did it.
it honestly was out of pure boredom because i didnt want to spend my money on movies so i went out and got a tattoo that i had been planning on doing since sr. year of high school.

new kids show

obviously almost a week since the show im still talking about it,
it was that good lol.

heres a video clip of them singing the right stuff.
the rest of the vidz are on my youtube account if your interested.

http://www.youtube.com/user/panicprincess03

NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK HAD A BUNCH OF HITS...

TONIGHT WAS SO MUCH FUN,
NOT EVEN GOING TO LIE WHEN I SAY NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK CONCERT TOP 5-10 CONCERTS THAT IVE BEEN TO!!!




it was fuckin awesome i made korey a donnie wahlberg fan but of course that chick needs to step off because this man is mine! lol



after the show we went out back by the buses and the guys came out.
jonathan waved and smiled at me and korey. so awesome such a cutie to bad he's gay lol
danny came out and he waved at us.
jordan kind of came out and said hi for a bit.

i didnt see joey come out but he left right away i think, he had his baby in the bus so i guess they left early for him.

of course donnie came out last. he stood right in front of korey and i, i was in heaven. lol i wanted him to sign my program but he went by so fast. he's so freakin hot. lol

jabbowackeez performed 1st the kicked ass. i loved it those boys came out to say hi also.

i'll post up the pictures tomorrow and videos.
i love my camera its youtube built the audio is awesome! lol

goodnight duckies.

MARCH 7TH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my childhood fantasy is coming true tomorrow!




im not going to lie i think i might freak out just a little.
i laugh every time i see them perform on tv now. but still i think seeing them live will be very surreal.


also the mtv americas best dance crew season 1 winners are going to be performing 1st at the show so its going to be pretty awesome.
i hope anyway.




and almost finally my partner in crime KOREY is going to the show with me because my sister had to back out at the last minute because my nephew is in and out of the hospital. man i wish the little booger would just get better already. its so stressful on everyone for him to be sick all the time.

Im starting to think he's being a big faker. you know. not wanting to go to daycare.
i used to do it in jr.high i mean look at that smile. sick, i think not lol jk.

GET BETTER SOON RAULY... OR CHAUCKY/ROOLY AS MY GRANDPA LIKES TO CALL HIM




ok FINALLY/LASTLY.
i think im far behind on paying attention to VERSAEMERGE. BUT i finally listened to a few of there things. i like them.
listen and watch "THE AUTHORS" the acoustic version.


ps. i think i may have a tini tiny crush on blake the guitarist.
he kinds of vaguely has brendon similairties... brendon circa 4years ago. i should say.
BLAKE



BRENDON CIRCA 4-ish years AGO.




-SO YES/NO or is it just me thinking they kind of look a like when really they dont. i want to know your opinions. lol


SHIT SORRY FOR THE BIG PICTURES. Blame photobucket. lol

anyway goodnight duckies.

PLAIN WHITE T'S!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

if your in the rio grande valley or somewhere in texas come out and see plain white t's.

she's not bleeding on the ballroom floor, just for the attention...

today was probably the most boring and yet the most fun day ever.
how is that, you ask?
well, work was boring but cute bartender was there :D his googley eyes at me are starting to get on my nerves. either say something clever and flirt or stop staring like that! seriously!
anyway got out of work, went to my granddads for a little bit then my mom and i went to do a little retail therapy. went to betsey johnson bought myself a purty new bag. she wanted one and couldnt find one she liked but then we went to a different store and she found a betsey she liked and bought it. went out for dinner and now im home writing this :D.
THESE PICS ARE FROM MY SIDEKICK SORRY IF THEY SUCK.
1st picture is my purse 2nd is my moms(that i will be stealing soon :D)
i told my mom if the bow would come off my purse id wear it in my hair lol



yesterday was my granddads birthday. went over to his house to celebrate the big EIGHT ZERO. played pin the tail on the donkey and musical chairs(note to self, when your sick all day...DONT play games where spinning is involved)
yes we made my grandpa wear that hat. and yes we made him play also :D






thats about it for the day. i was supposed to be off tomorrow but because i was sicky icky yesterday i have to work...its going to suck i promise you that. lol
goodnight folks.

i leave you w/ one of the prettiest/saddest katy perry songs.

thinking of you, fyi: she looks GORGEOUS in this video
not to mention she's wearing some KILLER shoes :D enjoy

im sicky :(

ugh i woke up this morning feeling not so great.
trying to figure out what i ate last night or something.
times like these when i wish the forums were up and running. :(

so last night were the Oscars. got to say probably on of my favorites in a long time.
hugh jackmon did great and there was a lot of comedy skits/sketches in it. so that was good. ben stillar pretending to be jaoquin pheonix AWESOME lol i was cracking up the entire time.

very happy the way the winners went.
kate winslet won, i wanted anne hathaway to win but i knew kate would take it.
sean penn won, MILK is such a great movie...go watch it.
heath ledger won, he definitely deserved that one.
penelope cruz won, i havent seen vicky christina barcelona so i might have to watch it to see what the fuss was all about. :D
and of course the biggest winners of the night slumdog millionaire i seriously need to check out that movie ive heard so many good things and now with the oscar win i will watch it.


best part of the night the fashion duh!
there were a couple of standouts for me.
yes i know i hate miley cyrus but i loved her dress it was so pretty and very sparkled out.
zuehar murad is the designer



Anne Hathaway's dress was very pretty i loved it.
Armani Prevei


Marissa Tomei
i didnt catch the name of the designer but check out the pleats in that dress.
a lot of hard work went in making this dress.


and finally
Taraji Henson.
her dress was very simple but yet very elegant. again i didnt catch the name of the designer but it was still a very pretty dress. and i loved her hair cut.





time for me to attempt to take some more medicine.
peace out. :)

nothing better than a little shopping...

so today was my day to wake up early and go to a meeting at work.
eek i didnt want to wake up it took me a good while.
it lasted roughly 2hrs but i survived.
after that my family and i went out to lunch to celebrate my grandpa's 80th birthday.
he turns 80 on monday. we are all pretty excited for his big eight one considering there was a good year we didnt know how he would be. may he have many many many MANY MANY more birthdays. i love him he's way to funny for everyone.
he enjoys making jokes and doing all that jazz. he even made fun of himself when he fell in the big trashcan outside his house a few weeks ago.




after lunch my mom and i decided to head to the mall for a little shopping got myself the new mac/hello kitty stuff. crazy its only been out for a little while and most of the stuff is already sold out.
i bought myself the blush and the lip gloss/conditioner. i really want the nail polish but they were all out.
i think i may have to buy it online next week.
we also went to victoria's secret for some other things. so i had a pretty good afternoon of a little shopping.







now time for me to start getting ready.
not really wanting to go but i have to. lol
xo-
maritza

all eyes on me in the center of a ring...

JUST LIKE A CIRCUS.

now i may not be a fan of b.spears but she sure does have some good songs.
on wednesday my mom and i took my nephew to the circus.
she claims ive been to one when i was little but i say it was a 1st for me.
at the beginning he was a little annoyed but once the show actually started he was so into it... all of it MINUS the clowns. he kept sitting back leaning on me when those guys would come out. he wasnt have the best time with them but overall i think he enjoyed it









THE LION TAMER HAD A SWEET PURPLE DIAMOND CRUSTED JACKET.
VERY MICHAEL JACKSON CIRCA 1987

oh and the ring leader looked like bob sage aka danny tanner from full house.
maybe he switched jobs because he couldnt find work as an actor anymore.



NOTE TO SELF...
you want to sit in the front row, be prepared to have elephants 5ft from your face.
dear lord my mom and i were freaking out they were soooooooo...SOOOOOOOOOOOOO close.
probably the closest ive ever been to them.





so new york fashion week is over. i caught a few of the dresses during the shows.
i think these might be my favorite.


oscar de la renta


and i think this is a win for me

marchesa

i dont know what it is about this dress. but it sure is a beauty.


this post is long but its all good.
and finally 2 of my favorite vids of the week.
Happy Tree Friends - I Heart U (HD)



and

selena gomez and demi lovato, these girls are doing exactly what i do when im bored...only i dont record it and post it on the web lol


meeting at 8:30am tomorrow...EEK!!!dont want to!
goodnight
-itza